Jealousy

Well today I discovered that I am (at this moment at least) jealous of everyone and everything that is spending time with my girlfriend.

Don't like the feeling and I trust her enough to know that my fears are unfounded. But it is there.
I will get over it but for now I don't like what I'm feeling.
No wonder they call it the big green monster, it can just start over nothing, and grows on more nothings. It is fed from your own insecurity, and it is a self perpetuating beast.

I know my fears are unfounded and so I will deal with my jealousy.
Just wish I could hug that girl.
Sigh.

Things I Learnt Last Night

1: Opening the bin and having maggots fall on your hand is off putting to say the least.
2: Pulling off the lid of the bin and having it covered in maggots can make you throw up a little in your mouth.
3: Ants like maggots.
4: The smell of rotting food is unmistakable.
5: A bit in a tropica climate needs to be changed more than once a week.